I feel so idiot. Living in else life. I dont have a life, its all huan jue. Im living like a dog. a machine, an asshole. someone whom others can use and throw. someone not worth to rmb, someone who is stupid. Someone who cant think my himself, someone who follows a routine life. Someone whose life is already carved out, someone who is useless, someone who cant speak, someone who is F-unlucky, someone who cant survive, someone who dont know what he is typing. Someone whose life is not as precious as others, someone who have to undergo sufferings and not get any good in the end, someone who is dumb. Someone, who deserve to be f-uped, someone who stores alot of things but cannot dispel. someone who......... i dont know.

Im not childish, Im not happy, Im not joy, Im not glad. Laughing is a camougflage, smiling s fake, grinning is evil, Beam is nothing.

I dont care, I really dont want to care, care is nothing concern is nothing, its all crap. all crap. life is full of crap. missing alot of stuffs. as u grow old, You feel old, you feel crap. thats it. Infron of your eyes is alot of different kind of life. not those that u experienced its those he hope u will be in and those u hope u wont be in.

Ive nothing to say. Im craped up